Huh! Finally got time to take out my laptop to declutter my perplexed brain
Sounds dramatic now, college is resuming from Monday onwards
Feeling like that zeal is gone in general and finding myself so lonely
Oh yes! I’m aware about the word “lonely” here
I think it’s okay to feel that way because I’m living alone
Damn! Realizing that it was such a long duration of isolation more than 8 months!
Wow! I mean wowww 8 months dude!!
8 months of sleepy mornings, sleepless nights
Unstoppable weird thoughts,
Sometimes badly missing home or friends.
Working, cooking, cleaning
Weeping or crying for don’t know what!!
Finding myself binge watching series/movies
Scrolling phones or switching between phone and laptop and repeating
Of course! Thanks to my saviour online food delivery services;
Have helped me a lot to cope up my bad mood swings.
Finding out the fact that people they can really leave you;
Despite of the love that you offer to them.
Realizing friends can become strangers too.
Suddenly noticing that I’m not being productive;
Then trying hard fighting with my own thoughts that its okay! To be like this;
And sometimes not agreeing with my own thoughts at all.
It’s a loop!
Thinking to change my sleeping habits but guess what?!
My phone doesn’t leaves me or may be other way around (Eeee)
Also found out myself being so moody, irritating and have lost interest in talking to people.
No! Not the actual talking, I still love talking to people directly than through phone/messages
But that’s what makes me and my loved ones connected, no I’m not against tech
But I really have lost interest in typing messages, you know what I mean (meh)
I know I’m not even making any point here, anyways whoever reads this, I hope you are doing fine.
If you’re like me messed up (it’s just an outline lol) don’t worry, you are not alone (Eeee).
Hope things will be fine again. Take care.